Private therapy session #2 take-away

Today I had my second private therapy session with a sex addiction counsellor. I had decided to go down the counselling route for two reasons: 1) self-motivation wasn’t working and 2) I started to appreciate that to fix my addiction, I’d have to really understand the underlying psychological reasons for it; something I would likely not be able to work out on my own (for more on this, see my previous post).

I’m not going to go into detail about these sessions but I do want to share any interesting topics of conversation, tips or techniques (let’s call them ‘take-aways’) that arise, that may help others in similar struggles as me.

The first take-away, from my first session, is already described above – that trying to just quit porn without addressing the underlying causes of the addiction is like putting a plaster on a wound that needs stitches. It will help in the short-term, but until you address the root problem, you’ll never fully heal.

My take-away from session #2 is:

Getting into a period of ‘sobriety’ is an important early step on the road to recovery.

I’m sure this sounds pretty obvious, but there is a reason why this was significant for me. To explain some background, I had previously tried many steps to force sobriety from porn – for example enabling content blocks through my ISP and phone providers and having my wife change the passwords to my router (see past post Stage 2 – Implementing the content block). However, I quickly found technical workarounds to some of these blocks and so they didn’t really work in the end. I eventually gave up, with the reasoning that these blocks were only the plaster – they prohibited me from watching porn but they didn’t stop me wanting to watch porn, which to me was the more important element that needed to be addressed.

Counselling is going to help me this element of understanding the root cause of my addiction. However, one of the things my therapist told me today was that getting into a period of abstinence from porn is a very important step in getting towards the improved mental state that will be vital to the recovery process. And so, if that means using temporary methods like content blocks etc, to help get to that period of abstinence, so be it. They may not be the end-game solution, but they help you get there.

So tonight, with my wife, we have re-enabled the content blocks from our ISP (broadband provider) and 3G networks. There is still a way for me to bypass the ISP block but in order to plug that gap I am going to need to replace my router. I’ll write more about this in a separate post once I’ve made the changes and tested them.

Take-away #2:

If there are triggers you are aware of that you are able to prevent, then do it

Another obvious-sounding piece of advice but only by really thinking about it did I realise something obvious. I have always known that the day after heavy drinking or smoking weed leaves me really horny. I don’t know why, but I love watching porn when slightly hungover from either of these drugs. So my therapist advised – stop drinking and smoking! Obviously these are only pieces of advice (he can’t force me to do it), but depending on how serious I am to be with this, I can take steps to remove certain activities that I know lead to increased likelihood of temptation. So this would mean no more drinking or weed smoking, which should be interesting! I haven’t quite committed to this yet, but am going to have to think about it. My motto these days is “whatever it takes“, so on that basis I am probably going to have to consider these options very seriously.

The journey of discovery continues…

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