I'm going to write in some detail about a slip I experienced yesterday. I hope this will help me process it, and by 'making a big deal' out of it (as I should), this should hopefully help me avoid minimising the consequences and the act, and therefore maintain focus on the motivations for staying sober … Continue reading Details of a slip
Tag: pornography
A pretty detailed account of my (porn) life
Today, while browsing r/NoFap, I came across a video called "Share Your Story" by a guy (supposedly) called Noah Church. Watching his other videos, he's an articulate and charismatic ex-porn addict who is spreading the word about addiction and providing help to those still struggling with it (here's probably his best video - a 20 minute … Continue reading A pretty detailed account of my (porn) life
Status Update – more content blocking!
So September is nearly upon us and looking back, August has been probably the toughest month I've had to deal with in relation to porn addiction. My anxiety and stress levels have been through the roof, yet I've been relapsing at the same regularity as before, so all in all I'm finding it hard to … Continue reading Status Update – more content blocking!
Monthly report: July 2014
I have been recording in a Google Calendar my daily progress. A green 🙂 goes if I did not look at porn that day, otherwise it gets a red X. At the end of each month, I total up the number of days clean as a percentage of total days in the month, with the goal being … Continue reading Monthly report: July 2014
Private therapy session #2 take-away
Today I had my second private therapy session with a sex addiction counsellor. I had decided to go down the counselling route for two reasons: 1) self-motivation wasn't working and 2) I started to appreciate that to fix my addiction, I'd have to really understand the underlying psychological reasons for it; something I would likely not … Continue reading Private therapy session #2 take-away
Taking the next step – professional help
One common theme amongst most people who have made significant progress in their porn addiction recovery, especially from those who have beaten it, is that they have all had professional help. So acknowledging that self-help, while beneficial, was not delivering the results for me that I wanted, I contacted a professional sex/porn addiction psycho-therapist, and today … Continue reading Taking the next step – professional help
Stage 2: Implementing the content block
Today I finally received the text message from my mobile phone provider that I've been waiting for for ages... confirming that their server-side adult content block has been activated on my account.I had hoped that willpower alone would have been enough to beat this thing, but it hasn't been the case, as I have still … Continue reading Stage 2: Implementing the content block
The porn fix vs the sex fix
One side-effect of porn that is widely discussed is that it can interfere with your enjoyment of real sex. Generally speaking, this, fortunately, has not been a problem for me. My sex drive has always been really high and so I always enjoy sex with my girlfriend, and porn rarely enters my mind during it. … Continue reading The porn fix vs the sex fix
Here we go again
It has been a few months since I last blogged on here, and there's a pretty obvious reason for that; I started watching porn again. I'm not going to be blogging about progress if there is none. I can't even blog about the fact I'm watching porn because I was hiding this relapse from my … Continue reading Here we go again
Rediscovering myself
This weekend my girlfriend is out of town. I was faced with the prospect of two days on my own, obviously with the goal of not watching porn. This is my first major test. To provide some context, in a similar situation in the past I would have earmarked the entire weekend for porn watching. … Continue reading Rediscovering myself
