One man's steps into recovery from porn addiction
Getting started with the Steps I recently attempted to commit to doing the 12 steps of Sex Addicts Anonymous. For the last 2 years I have attended SAA meetings and met members, to gain benefit from talking about addiction with like-minded people, but I've never actually done the steps. After a month of unsuccessfully re-trying … Continue reading Struggling with the religion of SAA
I haven't posted in a while, and I don't really want to actually, as it is a way of facing what's going on, which I don't really want to do. Such is the dilemma of the addict. It's also a new month, so let's look at last month in a month-by-month progress chart: As you … Continue reading Checking in – tough times
I'm going to write in some detail about a slip I experienced yesterday. I hope this will help me process it, and by 'making a big deal' out of it (as I should), this should hopefully help me avoid minimising the consequences and the act, and therefore maintain focus on the motivations for staying sober … Continue reading Details of a slip
A new month means a new monthly retrospective to see how the last month went. Here's the trusty chart: A slight dip in September compared to August, but both months still above 70%, unlike June and July which were below 70%. I think very slowly there is an improvement taking place, even if that is … Continue reading September Retrospective: Goal Accountability
I'm getting settled in to the weekly SAA meeting I go to now in my new home town. It has a nice vibe to it, everyone is really friendly, open, honest and supportive. I even met up with some of the members beforehand for a coffee. Tonight's meeting was powerful, and has given me some things to think about. … Continue reading A Powerful Meeting
Sex Addiction, according to Wikipedia, has been around since the 1970s, but porn addiction (specifically internet porn) is a far newer concept, not least because of the relatively recent development of technology to make online porn so available and therefore powerful in its addictiveness. During my early days of therapy for my porn addiction, I was quickly and eagerly … Continue reading Porn Addiction vs Sex Addiction
I thought it would be worth writing a post just to check in and put into writing a quick summary of where I am right now. TL;DR: clean for 12 days, got a sponsor, started the 12 steps. I really struggled over the past month or so, and I'm not quite sure why. What I … Continue reading Check in – Day 12 – Starting the 12 Steps
This post is copied verbatim from today's journal entry Day 1 I wonder how many times I have written “day 1” in my journal? It is probably not worth counting - too depressing? But here we are again, and like many times before, I’m hoping this time will be different, and here’s why. I achieved … Continue reading A Re-Commitment to Recovery
Last week I became a dad for the first time, to a healthy beautiful daughter. I never expected at the age of 32 to start feeling new emotions I've never felt before, but here I am, in a world of besotted love for another human like no other (and a level of enhanced love for … Continue reading Becoming a dad
This weekend I told my sister about my addition. To me this represented the 4th milestone in my journey of recovery. Those milestones have been: #1 - Admitting I was addicted to internet pornography and telling my wife #2 - Going to see a therapist for the first time #3 - Going to a Sex Addicts … Continue reading Milestone #4 – Telling my sister
