Hello world, it's me again. My last post was three months ago, yikes. That means things have been bad. The unquestionable sign of when my recovery is going well or bad is when I am communicating about it with others, either online or in person. When I'm focussed on recovery, I'm talking to my wife, … Continue reading It’s Check-In Time!
Getting started with the Steps I recently attempted to commit to doing the 12 steps of Sex Addicts Anonymous. For the last 2 years I have attended SAA meetings and met members, to gain benefit from talking about addiction with like-minded people, but I've never actually done the steps. After a month of unsuccessfully re-trying … Continue reading Struggling with the religion of SAA
I'm going to write in some detail about a slip I experienced yesterday. I hope this will help me process it, and by 'making a big deal' out of it (as I should), this should hopefully help me avoid minimising the consequences and the act, and therefore maintain focus on the motivations for staying sober … Continue reading Details of a slip
A new month means a new monthly retrospective to see how the last month went. Here's the trusty chart: A slight dip in September compared to August, but both months still above 70%, unlike June and July which were below 70%. I think very slowly there is an improvement taking place, even if that is … Continue reading September Retrospective: Goal Accountability
I'm getting settled in to the weekly SAA meeting I go to now in my new home town. It has a nice vibe to it, everyone is really friendly, open, honest and supportive. I even met up with some of the members beforehand for a coffee. Tonight's meeting was powerful, and has given me some things to think about. … Continue reading A Powerful Meeting
Sex Addiction, according to Wikipedia, has been around since the 1970s, but porn addiction (specifically internet porn) is a far newer concept, not least because of the relatively recent development of technology to make online porn so available and therefore powerful in its addictiveness. During my early days of therapy for my porn addiction, I was quickly and eagerly … Continue reading Porn Addiction vs Sex Addiction
Its high time I wrote an update, so here goes. December was a rollercoaster, and it triggered a revisiting of my approach to recovery (including temporarily giving up on recovery altogether). To give some context then, a quick look back at 2015... Here's my complete recovery chart for 2015, which shows the %age days 'clean' each … Continue reading Checking in for 2016
Today, February 1st 2015, marks the first full calendar month that I have stayed sober from pornography. Throughout my efforts to quit last year, the longest I ever went was 13 days, and that was once - generally I would relapse on average after about 7 days, so I'm pleased to have made it to one … Continue reading One Month Sober – Reflections